Why bother ?? ... Ohh brother.... Here we go again...

I don't see the point. I don't see why I even bother thinking about you anymore... It's not like you care. Why should I worry about replying you text OR NOT!? Why do I bother thinking about the best sentence to reply your messages with hurting you? WHY? WHY? WHY? Ahhhh... Do you really deserve all this?? Sheish... STOP ! STOP! STOP ! I don't think so, you left me for months, why can't I do the same thing to you for days? ==' . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . Help?

Why now?

Just when I thought you've left me for good, you come back . . . . . Why? Why now? Why not NEVER? I'm not mad you for saying what you said, because I realise it's true, SOME of it. But I'm mad at you for leaving me without a reason. For as long as we were together, never once have you ever mentioned his name in front me. The first time you mentioned his name was the day you left me. I don't blame you for deciding to leave me. But why HIM? Why mention his name then? Why not before? When you had so many questions in your head . . . Why keep all those questions to yourself and leave them unanswered? I don't blame you or anyone else except myself. I have no reason to do so. Though, I do question myself sometimes . . . Why didn't I ask you? Why didn't I push you harder? All and all.. it's a little too late now though, DON'T YOU THINK ??? Then...... Why bring it all up again??? Why not leave it where it was months go? Start new and rebuild this friendship we use to have. However, I can't promise you that it will never be as perfect as it was before. Forgiving is forgetting BUT NEVER forgive and forget, as it is a lot easier said than done, trust me I know.

P.s. Good Luck and I wish you all the best in life. Insya-allah maybe we can mend and rebuild this friendship somewhere in the future. Maybe...