Come and Go

Each one of you came into my life and left. I used to regret
having any of you in my life once. But someone posted this on his wall not too
long ago “Never regret the things you did, regret the things you never did,” It
took sometimes for me to figure out what he truly meant and now I understand. I
no longer regret having any of you in my life, because each and every one of
you taught me something about life. So indirectly, Thank You. Thanks to you, I
now know how to make friends and who to be friends with or maybe something more
than that. So, thank you. I’ll cherish all those moments we spent together and
take it as a lesson in life ;)

Unfriend You

Does deleting someone from your facebook list of friends means your friendship ends right there and then? I don’t think so, unless you block them from you page that puts it in crystal clear form that you don’t them to be a part of your life any longer. Truth be told, even after I removed you from my friend list, I still visit you page every once in a while just to check up on you. Even that is still not enough, because I still care; sometimes I wonder how things are going for you. I have to admit it took me quite sometimes to get back on my own two feet after what we’ve been through. But life is never easy, sometime you need help from the people around you and your assignments to occupy your mind. I’m grateful that there are people out there willing to lend me their hands. However, it doesn’t mean I’ve completely moved on. I haven’t, it’s just that I don’t dwell on it as long as I used to. I used to lie to myself saying that I’ve moved on just so my heart and mind can finally accept the fact that you’re never coming back and that I will never look back to see how great the past was when I, myself, is uncertain about what life has in store for us. The future might better on the other side, you never know. So, I would like to take this chance to tell you that I can slowly learn to accept that we can never be more than friends and I still care about you as much as I used to. There were times when I’d dial your number but never had the guts to press the “call” button because deep down I know that you’ll never pick up. Even so, it’s harder to pretend like you have never existed in my life or this world. But you did, sometimes ago and you still do even when you went missing for that couple of months in my life. I can’t deny the fact when it’s staring at you right in the face. I would also like to thank all my friends and family out there for helping me get through each day, putting up with stubborn behaviour. Thank you so much, I truly appreciate it.

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He used to take care of me when I was little. He's one of my cousin. I used to love listening to his speech. He'd come over and ask how me and my brothers was doing in school, since we were schooling in a foreign country, and give me hours after hours of long speech about life and how we can stand back up with our own two feet after each failure in life. I'd see him often back in UK. But here, I rarely see any of my cousins, him especially. I love to read his wall posts on Facebook. Loving all the quotes he posts and tend to agree with mostly all of them. The post, quotes of life, is something that I can relate to my life how the world works and ways to solve. Sometimes, it's fun solving riddle-like quotes. Figuring out the real meaning behind these lines is like figuring out what lies behind our entire life. Everything happens for a reason. It's hard to except the fact but it's the TRUTH. The reality of life is not a fantasy and it hurts most of the time. We just have to learn to except it and move on.

#finallyrealisingsomethingoutofnothing

Got something to say ? ? ?

Do you have something to say to me? Something about me that you dislike? Or perhaps something I did or say that you disagree with? Or maybe something that you dislike about my family? I'd like to say "HATE" but that's a little to harsh. Anyhow, come forward and say it to my face. Be direct and if possible don't miss out any little details. I'm giving you the chance to speak and let your opinion's' be heard. I promise I won't be angry or mad because at the very least, you're being honest and sincere about what you think about me. I can't deny the fact that I'm just a normal human being. I make mistake, neither am I perfect. However, wanting to except my imperfection and make a difference to myself, that whole new story. That's my decision, whether or not to except it or deny it. Although, I am a person who is willing to change for the better. If I believe that what you say is true and that it is something I should change about myself then it can be taken into consideration.

Nevertheless, I feel that a person who can't come forth and let their opinion be heard should never have the rights to judge another or comment on other's appearance simply base on their own dissatisfaction. You have a voice, let be heard. Besides there is no point in commenting on others appearance when they can barely hear what you have to say about them. Indirectly, you're avoiding the sin of cursing and insulting others behind their backs.

Honestly saying, I used to be a part of this disgraceful community. I like to insult others when they can't even hear a single word I say. But, growing up, I'm beginning to see the world in a whole new perspective. I can't seem to find to objective this whole "INSULTING" thing. From this, I am more aware of myself from what I wear, what I do, the way talk to the way I look at people. Imagining myself in other peoples shoe and considering their opinion. Even so, I'm still no better than any of you out there. I am just simply my humanly-imperfect-self as anyone out there. Every now and then, I admit, I tend to get involve in this accidentally but I'd stop as soon as I realize it. Thinking to myself "Astaghfirullahalazim what am I doing? STOP!" walk away from the crowd and don't look back, there's no point. I won't miss out on anything except the sins of insulting others.

*There was no grudge held against anyone specific in the making of this post, rather it is an open opinion for everyone and anyone out there. Hope everyone can get a little something out of everything that is written up here. I sincerely apologise for the unintended feeling created after reading this blog, not my intention to do so. Sorry and TQ :)

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