. . . Err . . Sorry . . . For bothering you ? ? ?

I promised myself that I’d call you when I was ready to face you and except the fact. But I didn’t, instead I called you today because I missed you. Though, I didn’t expect you to answer, like so. Deep in my heart, I know you’ve moved on and that I had no rights to come back. But I can’t take it any longer. You left a big empty space in my heart that I can’t seem to fill back in. I just want you back in my life one way or another, even if I have to bare the pain, I don’t mind. Nevertheless, I have this huge ego that I can’t learn to let go. I don’t know how to tell you all this. Even if I did try, I would hesitate half way and end up giving up. I would write page after page of long sms and end up deleting them when I reach the last sentence. I’m sorry, I really wish you knew.