Moon-less night

The sky is so clear tonight. I can see the stars shining so brightly but sadly there’s no moon. Staring up at the sky, looking at the stars reminds me of a song. A song you introduced to me a few weeks after you proposed. Not long after that, it became our song, a song that would remind me of you. Every time I listen to it, I’ll always think of you. Even now, when we have nothing left of each other, it still reminds me of you. Only now, it will so remind me of the heartache and pain you’ve caused me. You left me hanging and confused. Even after you left, you act as if we never had anything in the first place. Knowing I’m your first, I guess, I myself understand why it was easy for you to let me go. It may seem a like a game at first, but know this, it was never a game to me. I loved you sincerely. I really hoped and prayed that you’d be the one I’d spend the rest of my life with. Perhaps, that is why it’s hard for me to let you go, I had such high hopes for you. True, I’ll never tell you that I still care about you and that I miss having you around. But, that’s who I am and how I react to situations like this. I’d act like everything’s okeyh and that I’ve completely moved on and forgotten about you and couldn’t care less. They’re all lies, lies to hide what truly feel. That’s me, I hide the pain from the people who has ever hurt me. Simply because I don’t want to show my weakness to people who treat me like dirt. You could put the blame on me, saying I never call or text you. Though, playing the role as the girlfriend, I would rather have you as the man, call me or text just to ask how my day was or if I was alright. But you never did any of those. In the beginning, yes, maybe, but as our relationship was coming to an end, you’d only text if I texted you or call if I called you first. It’d be nice to have someone care about you every once in a while, especially from the person you love. It’s not like I nag on you every single minute of every single hour of the day, I’m not that kind of girl. I call when I’m free and I won’t bother you if you’re busy. I know, never once have I asked you to do any of these things but I’d expect you to know. If you knew me well enough, I think you’d be able to figure out what I liked and what I dislike by paying attention and taking notes of the things I tell you about myself and observe me from a far. However, it doesn’t seem like you did your homework. Somehow, after writing all these, I finally realise how little you know about women and how to treat them. I know you’ll be reading this somehow. Note this, girls like it when you give them little compliments about themselves. Not too much though, you’ll make them sick. AND if they truly love you and care about you, they will appreciate every little thing you do for them. Even if it’s the simplest thing in the world that you could possibly do, like giving them a call every now and then before you go to bed just to let them know how much you appreciate them and that you love them. Call them, not text. I wish you all the best on your next relationship. I hope you’ll find someone worthy of you. Someone who loves you, care about you and treat you better than I did. Take care old friend, may Allah bless you with happiness and joy in your life.