Daytime Bedtime

"When depressed, women are more likely to suffer hypersomnia where they experience excessive sleepiness, overeat or have other anxiety disorder"

Adapted from Reader's Digest, July 2009

I came through this passage as I was doing my BEL120 exercise in class for my upcoming grammar test not too long ago. I realised that I had experienced excessive sleepiness for the past several days and only now I know why. It was because I was under a lot of stress; adapting myself to a new environment, trust issues with friends, family problems, sleepless nights and being alone most of the time in my room. It's crazy, I would spend half of the day sleeping in my room when I had tones of assignments that had to be done and due the very next week. My friends would call and ask me to join them do our assignments, I'd pick up the phone and say I'll be down in 5min and go back to sleep. They would be waiting for me more than an hour and had to call me for more than 10 times before I actually came down. It's sad, I have never felt so sleepy in my whole life and I feel sorry for my friends for making them wait for me for so long. Thanks to you for making it worst, leaving me alone, even after all the promises you've made. For days, I just felt like doing nothing and stay in bed all day. I wanted to call you, talk to you, tell you that I was in so much pain. But you ignored me, you wouldn't answer my calls or reply my text. However, I figured it can't entirely be your fault. You too, had your own problems to solve and pain and suffering to go through. I guess we have our own problems to solve. Every one has their own challenges in life and it's different for each person. But I guess, I just wanted you be there with me when I felt like I couldn't go on any longer, I wanted you to be there and give me support and advice like you always do. Pushing me and giving me hope to keep going, that's all. I guess, what I'm asking for too much. I'm sorry.

P.s. Girls, I'm sorry for everything, Thank you for standing by my side until now, even after all we've been through. Thank you so much. Love you laa muahmuah <3