I am starting my old habits again. Missing my prayers and not reading the al-Quran as frequently as I used to. I’m becoming the one person I hate the most, my old self. The me that uses vulgar words, whenever things go wrong. Always feeling lost and incomplete. Wandering around with no sense of direction and not a single goal in mind. The feeling of uncertainty and uneasy is always mingling in my heart. Likely to give up easily. Lazy and incompetent. I know, I have to change. But I don’t know how, I can’t remember how I did it before. “Ya Allah, I need your help. Please give me guidance and strength to change myself and become a better person than I am now. Give me support and hope to continue my journey in this world. Prevent me from taking the wrong path and guide me in to the right path. Send someone that could help give me the support and guidance that I need to further this journey. Ya Allah, please help me. Amin”